The next step of my journey is clearly before me, and yet I feel dismayed and unprepared.
I have to keep reminding myself that I chose this path. That my husband, family and friends are all cheering for me and are willingly walking this journey with me. I have to remind myself that I am worthy of trying.
Despite the anxiety, the fact that my stomach is constantly in knots, my kidneys hurting (weird!), that I hardly sleep anymore, and have doubt and guilt hanging over my head every day of the week...I can take comfort (when I remember to) in Christ. More than any other person He knows exactly what pressures I am feeling and the deadlines I am under. I know that He is listening when I pull into my apartment complex at 2am after a night of work and cannot help but cry because I have not finished everything I needed to.
Yet, I know that my present circumstances are temporary and that He is constant. Only in Him am I able to have perspective.
|Most days, I feel like this....|